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27 April 2010 @ 12:57 am
06. I'll kiss your shadow (aiba/jun, pg-13)  
Title: I'll kiss your shadow
Pairing: Aiba/Jun
Rating: PG-13?
Words: 664
Notes: this was actually supposed to be for the a kiss, and all was said contest, but ended up not quite meeting the guidelines. I don’t know how to create fully established situations, hence the shortness and possibly confusing setting.
Not beta-ed \o/

Having Jun is different than taking Jun, or what Aiba imagines taking Jun would be, but he wraps one leg around Jun’s waist and doesn’t complain. He pants and moans in Jun’s neck, trying to feel and memorize everything; the taste of the skin just under Jun’s ear, the way his dark eyelashes trace long, fluttering shadows on his cheekbones when he thrusts deeper, the strong but comforting smell of the sweat sliding between them, the rustling of the sheets, the shivers, gasps and whimpers. Aiba wants to remember, he wants to remember it all because this will never happen again, he knows. He is sure Jun himself doesn’t know why he agreed to it in the first place.
There are no sweet words, no promises, but that’s alright, Aiba doesn’t expect any. And when Jun dips his head and kisses his neck instead of lips, Aiba doesn’t mind, he’s glad that Jun is kissing him at all. So he grips his shoulders just a bit tighter, pushes back with every thrust and breathes “Jun, Jun.”

The next few days are not as awkward as Aiba expected. He’s a bit quieter than usual but no one calls him on it, and Jun doesn’t avoid him. Sometimes, there is something that looks vaguely like guilt on his face when he glances at Aiba, but it’s faint enough to ignore, so Aiba does.
He hadn’t planned to thank Jun, but, somehow, the words come out of his mouth one evening as they’re waiting for the van that will take them back to the city after a day on location. It comes completely out of the blue and Aiba briefly hopes that Jun doesn’t understand what he’s talking about. But of course Jun does and he glances around quickly before giving Aiba an odd look. They’re quiet for a while, and Aiba wishes he hadn’t said anything when Jun speaks.
“You shouldn’t thank me for that.”
It’s not meant to hurt, Aiba can hear it in the softness of Jun’s tone, but it still does, a bit. He smiles and shrugs.
“You didn’t have to,” he says, and means it.
Headlights appear at the end of the street. Aiba swings his bag on his shoulder and adjusts his cap. As the van pulls up and Jun goes to open the door, Aiba hears a quiet “I wanted to.” His whole body tenses and he stands rooted to the spot, watches Jun climb in, mind suddenly reeling with hopeful, unwanted thoughts.
The ride is quiet, and if it wasn’t for his slightly rigid posture and the fact that Jun won’t turn his gaze away from the window, Aiba would think that he imagined the last sentence. He knows he hasn’t, though, and wonders if it should make him feel better.
It seems like ages before they’re finally dropped off. Aiba hops off the van and waits, half hoping that Jun will simply ignore him and leave. The van leaves them facing each other on the pavement, the streetlights casting uneven shadows on their figures. Aiba doesn’t know what to do.
“Jun,” he sighs and passes a hand over his face. “You don’t have to--”
“I know,” Jun replies quickly, looking down at the ground, up at the sky, and back at the ground. The light from the streetlamp flickers, goes off and on again. Aiba is about to open his mouth again when Jun seems to reach some sort of conclusion and suddenly stops fidgeting to look back at him.
“I know,” he repeats. His voice his low, his gaze steady and Aiba thinks “are you going to kiss me now?” and takes a step forward.

Jun does.

It’s not quite on the lips, but Aiba doesn’t mind. He doesn’t mind at all.
betzi_chan: Junbetzi_chan on April 26th, 2010 05:49 pm (UTC)
i am speechless now.
it is very good and i really like the sad, melancholy atmosphere in here.
and somehow it is an open end.
i like it, because i can imagine my own end. *smiles*
thanks for sharing.
it is a really good drabble!
bling~★flying_spaceman on April 30th, 2010 11:39 am (UTC)
Thank you very much for such a kind comment, it makes me really happy :) :) it is indeed an open end, and I have some suspicions as to what happens next, but feel free to imagine whatever ending you'd like!
Thank you for reading, and eve more for your comment :)
stsatsumatsu on April 26th, 2010 05:51 pm (UTC)
God, I loved this!
All the hope and insecurity and... seriously LOVE!

bling~★flying_spaceman on April 30th, 2010 11:40 am (UTC)
Thank you vey much! :) I'm really happy you liked it, and thank you for your comment :)
Juliabee;フラワー安座: arashi aibajun laugh.floweranza on April 26th, 2010 06:49 pm (UTC)
This is really lovely. ♥ Aiba's shyness, Jun's emotional awkwardness...

Thank you for sharing!

(!! Also, I think it fits the very loose guidelines quite well. Be sure to submit it!)

Edited at 2010-04-26 07:32 pm (UTC)
bling~★flying_spaceman on April 30th, 2010 11:49 am (UTC)
Thank you so much for your comment! I-i kind of really like everything you write and I actually flailed a little when I read it, so, really, thank you very, very much! I'm glad it wasn't too bad :'D

(I followed your advice and submitted it, but it wasn't accepted because of the "no sex" rule, as I thought. I guess I'll have to try to write something else then!)
arashiislovearashiislove on April 26th, 2010 11:21 pm (UTC)
this is good ^^
bling~★flying_spaceman on April 30th, 2010 11:50 am (UTC)
Thank you :)
fancyann1974fancyann1974 on April 27th, 2010 02:42 am (UTC)
lovely story
thank you for sharing :)
bling~★flying_spaceman on April 30th, 2010 11:50 am (UTC)
Thank you, I'm glad you liked it :) :)
Niji: junbaitsumo_niji on April 27th, 2010 02:44 pm (UTC)
i cant even find words O_O
thanks you,it was beautiful...so SO much *___*
i love the way you moved on their feelings,the shadow playing on them...
thanks yOoOoOoOoOu <3
bling~★flying_spaceman on April 30th, 2010 11:51 am (UTC)
Thank you vey much! :) :) I'm really happy you liked it :) (I even got a keysmash, yay! :D)
Jaja Emiko Rizajaja_emiko on April 27th, 2010 02:50 pm (UTC)
that is sooo sweet!! jun and aiba is the cutest pair out there!! XD
bling~★flying_spaceman on April 30th, 2010 11:52 am (UTC)
Jun and Aiba make a very fine pair, that is true! Thank you very much for your comment, I'm glad you liked the story :) :)
god damn these electric sex pantsnicefinalbeam on April 27th, 2010 06:00 pm (UTC)
Awww. This is really sort of sweet and heartbreaking at the same time. Jun seems so closed off, but he's trying? And Aiba loving anyone is always lovely to me.

Thanks for sharing! :D
bling~★flying_spaceman on April 30th, 2010 12:05 pm (UTC)
Thank you for taking the time to read and comment even though it didn't fit the contest guidelines!
I didn't want it heartbreaking, but i guess it is a little? But there is a happy ending! Of sort.
Jun is trying, he really is, it is just a little overwhelming. Aiba came to him on a very normal day and told him "Hey, Jun, I know it's weird, but I'd like to sleep with you, is that okay?" and for a reason he cannot fathom, Jun had said yes (two weeks later, but somehow Aiba had understood his sudden "yeah, okay" immediately) and, well, I suppose it was a lot to take in at once.
Anyway, what am I saying.

Thank you again for your comment (and a nice one at that, you are very kind) :) :)
Aya-chiisyri_chii on April 27th, 2010 06:32 pm (UTC)
Uh, I don't have any decent comment to write after reading smuts here and there but I want to tell you how I LOVE this very much...

Bittersweet and yet wonderful...

thanks for feeding me some aiba/jun love...
bling~★flying_spaceman on April 30th, 2010 12:09 pm (UTC)
ahah, this is a perfectly decent comment! And do not worry even if it wasn't, I'm not picky. Any type of comment is fine by me, seeing that people read my stuff is amazing enough in itself.
So, thank you very much!! I'm glad i could provide you some Aiba/Jun love, there ought to be more of it, they are a beautiful pair.
Thank you again for reading and taking the time to comment, I'm happy you liked it :)
nloversnlovers on April 27th, 2010 07:18 pm (UTC)
i always say that there is not enough junba around...this is so lovely and rather heartbreaking...
bling~★flying_spaceman on April 30th, 2010 12:13 pm (UTC)
I agree, they make a very neglected pair among fandom (although some very good writers have them as their OTP and write wonderful things with them).
Ah, it really comes out as heartbreaking then? Even with the beginning of a happy ending at the end? Ah, I need to work on that for next time.

Anyway, thank you very much for your comment, I'm glad you liked it :) :)
bob lemonboblemon on May 2nd, 2010 12:15 pm (UTC)
Aw, really liked it! It was very realistic and I enjoyed the fact that it was from Aiba's point of view. I loved the first line Having Jun is different than taking Jun, or what Aiba imagines taking Jun would be,

Thank you!
bling~★flying_spaceman on June 26th, 2010 06:02 am (UTC)
Alright, I don't think you can even call this being late anymore given that you left your comment nearly TWO MONTHS AGO, b-but you are a very kind and generous person so you will forgive me?
S-so, thank you very much for your comment! I obviously failed at expressing my gratitude properly, but each comment does mean a lot to me, and yours is no exception. Thank you again, for reading and taking the time to leave a few words, I truly appreciate it! :)
S-sorry again for the utter lack of punctuality orz